for comparison...

37w1d with kamdyn...aug 11, 2008




37w1d w/ kyndal...jan 9, 2007...one day before she was born

no baby yet

long story short, i'm dilated to 3cm in and out now from 3 out and 1 in. i'm in unbelievable pain. and that's it.

it's 530am!!!!!!!

anyhow, after contracting regularly every 3 mins for over 7hrs. to the point the kids were exceptionally well behaved. showered, dressed, packed their gameboys and leapsters and were ready to go at a moment's notice and decided that they never want to have children naturally, they're both certain they want to adopt..........THEY STOPPED. I MEAN JUST STOPPED. we all looked towards the clock cuz it was about to be 3 mins and nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing......ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

i passed out, exhausted. and actually slept 5hrs straight w/o waking. and now here i sit. crampy. SORE. and i really don't know how this baby is gonna get out. i need to be put to sleep while they do whatever cuz mentally i'm done for. i just can't endure the pain anymore. last nite felt like i felt when i got to the hospital in transition and had kyndal 30mins later. and nothing. thsi is unbelievable.

so i guess i will make my 11am appt today.

procrastination at it's best...

so i felt nothing this morning. all morning.
just tired.
around 1p started cramping.
laid down.
woke up around 3p.
TMI!! diarrhea.
laid back down.
got up around 5p.
TMI!! more diarrhea.
ran a warm bath.
contractions started. 3mins apart but not painful. now three hours later they're consistent. and painful! i can only squeal thru them. can't talk.
called my ob.
he said go if/when i can't take it anymore
til then, warm bath and tylenol.
o yeh, that's gonna help.
so i'm gonna be true to myself.
and wait til the last minute, like i did last time.

37w exactly today....

i don't believe it. and i don't wanna be. ok, so baby is 'full term" what's the hold up now. all of my resolve is GONE. i am not even trying to be nice to anyone anymore.
i don't want to. i don't wanna hold her, see her. wish i could turn back the clock. and that is the honest truth. and now i'm going to my bedroom since this room as been taken over by kids and it's not their fault that i'm miserable and i'm not gonna take it out on them.

hospital stay reveals baby not ready yet.....

so monday i had "leaking" all day....soaked thru 6 pads/pantyliners and three pair of undies in 12 hrs.....thought it had to be water...guess it was combo of urine and sweat. i'm in too much pain to be embarrassed right now. anyhow, late in the afternoon on monday this "stinging" or "burning" sensation started in my lower abdomen. i was feeling overall crappy too. i could tell i was spiking a fever here and there. when you touched my belly at these times it'd be burning hot to the touch. over the next day the stinging/burning sensation, comparable to when you get a vaccination, got progressively worse, and my lower back tightened up, and i developed a headache i couldn't shake, and was continually nauseous. so when kalen got off at 3am wednesday morning he took me on in to the hospital. well, that turned into a day and a half admit.

my bp was elevated upon arrival. so i had to stay and do a 24hr urine to test for protein. my numbers came back at 128. 300+ is pre-eclamptic, so that was ruled out. my bps lowered but stayed a lil high so they attribute them to my pain.

my ob was willing to induce at that point, but we had to know baby was ok, esp since i was in the middle of week 36, not quite term.

i underwent an amnio which apparently bothered my nurses more than it did me. lol the lung development test came back in three parts. the first two were all we got before i was discharged but they were enough. her numbers were borderline, but on the neg side so her lungs are still a lil immature. it's baffling. girls are supposed to develop faster than boys, i had the steroid shots, and i'm just days shy of being "full term". of course, i'm freaking out thinking her immature lungs could be a part of bigger problem, but everyone is assuring me if it had been done just a couple days later she'd be right on. i'm still worried some. but i guess i have a textbook baby. 37 weeks means full term and she's gonna make 37 weeks when she feels like being finished. at least. sooooo.....

here i sit cuz i have to alternate positions frequently. i'm in extreme pain. i hurt worse now than i did when i was recovering from my mastectomies. i'm foregoing pain meds because i'm just too afraid to introduce anything else into her lil system. 37 weeks is sunday. who knows when she'll be here. when she's good and ready i guess. now i'm glad the measures taken to try to speed along my labor were unsuccessful.

i can tell you this, i WILL NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER be pregnant again in my life!

o, and yeh, the stinging/burning, nausea, headache, sore back....yep, didn't go away and i have no explanation other than i'm pregnant.

eventful week, but not eventful enough!

let's see, started the week off at 1cm and got my membranes stripped. and nothing. went back on thursday, was 3cm and got stripped again. and so far..nothing. i walked for 7.5 hrs yesterday. wore myself out. sore ankles and calves is all i have to show for it so far.

still don't know what's wrong w/ the car.

the kids threw us a "baby shower" yesterday complete w/ games and microwaved popcorn and koolaid.

skeeter is entering a blind plea and letting the judge sentence him. it should be 4yrs probation w/ a 4yr backup and he'll forever be known as a convicted felon. so much for federal student aid.

the BIG event we've all been waiting for still has not occurred and at this point, i don't think it ever will.

o yeh, twiggi went to the muny w/ her big sister and puddn finally met hers, they're gonna hang out tomorrow afternoon.

i'll be 36w tomorrow. 36 weeks! are you kidding me?! why?!